ITS BEEN A WHILE!!

 Hi Priyansha! Good morning!! 🤗

Pehle toh I am shocked to see the date of the last post, I cannot believe it's been so long. Sorry for the all the waiting. You are right, I do tend to come here when I am low. Not today tho. Today I am here because you feel low. 

Also, you were right, I didn't have anything written for you. I said I wanted to write...I was going to, I had something very cute and cheesy in mind about the all the clothes and pictures you were sending to me, something about what I want to see next. Give you some explicit instructions but you always jump the gun! But today I am going to freestyle, just straight off the head. Type whatever comes to mind. But I'll try be mindful. I know how your day will go may depend on how you feel after you read this. 

But I cannot go about trying to cheer you up without addressing what went wrong yesterday. So let me start there. I hope me being insecure about your friends wasn't news to you, I may not have shown it before but I am very possessive when it comes to you. This outburst of mine was due for some time. And reading your message really made me feel insignificant, like I could be replaced at any time. Honestly speaking, I do not know if I am sorry about how I behaved, this had been bothering me for a while and I did get a clear answer to my question. I am not kidding reading your message did immediately pacify me. That is literally all I have been wanting to hear, for the longest time. But perhaps I could have approached it in a different way. I know I could have done it better. I am sorry for hurting you. I have read your messages countless times, you were doing nothing but trying to cheer me up. I know me writing this for you may not do much to make things better but I have my entire life ahead to try. Because I am never leaving you. I just want you to be by your side through this life too. I really love you a lot. Not excusing my behavior but I acted like a fool because I love you. Of all people you can probably relate to feeling insecure about their partner. I love you.

I LOVE YOU!! These three words hold so much weight to me. I say it so much to you. have you gotten tired of hearing it yet?? I think I say it so much that you don't believe me anymore. I may have to start not saying it as much. But I cant help it, my fingers cant help themselves. Certain things cannot be controlled when it comes to you. I really really really love you to death. I can't live without you. This is some very loser shit but I'll let make it known anyways: I just want to spend my entire life making you happy. I want you to feel loved and appreciated.

And I know this is just some post on some website so if there is still a a lot of making up for me to do. Today, let me talk to you over breakfast...tell me if you are you working out...what time? I will order breakfast for you accordingly. Cancel any other plans you may have...I love you. Please know I mean it every time I say this to you. If this means anything to you then try not to be upset today, I am not upset with you...I guess I have no reason to be. Everything was in my head. But I really am sorry. I love you a lot, I miss you so much. I don't know what I will do without you so please don't leave me. I am always thinking about you. I am crazy about you. If I ever hurt you I didn't mean to. Please forgive me. I want you to have a nice day. I wish I could write some more, but this is all I have to tell you. It's a constant feeling for me. I love you. I started off trying to make you happy but ended up in tears as I finish writing this lol. I love you 😘 ❤️