Priyansha I find solace in you. It's ironic but it's true. And I'm going to try my best to be there for you too. I don't know how I feel but I am glad to be talking to you again. You know I really wanted to get you coffee, but it's always difficult to get the timing right. Right now I really had this urge to get you flowers, I realized I never bought you any. Sorry! They all remind me of you. They're pretty, smell good and are so delicate. They need love and tending to. Just like you. Priyansha you know everything there is to know, please forgive me. Couples fight, they resolve things and I don't think there are any unreconcilable differences between us. You are my entire world dude!! You are my everything!! 

Anyways, I understand you know may not be able to keep them hence not being wasteful, its okay if you throw it out (see, it's somewhat challenging to orchestrate this) Take a whiff, thats what you smell like to me. Thats how I close I want to be able to get to you. Month 7 of me being here is complete and I am dying for you. 10 days have gone by since I saw you but it feels like 10 months to me. I miss you. I have missed you terribly. 

And Priyansha, please stop ending conversation with phrases that can mean 'goodbye forever' There is no goodbye, only forever when it comes to me and you. You wont get rid of me this easy. I love you

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I wrote that, tried to buy flowers and my card wont work for payment. I remember the same thing happened previously. I am so sorry.... I love you. You were supposed to get flowers with a note saying 'you know where to find your note' around this time. Im sorry. I love you. It would have been nice to surprise you with something. To be able to make you smile I still wanted to share how I feel hence keeping this up. Priyansha you are my world. You are my everything. And I want to be your everything too. I miss you. You know all this, and I hope you know that I mean it. It's the only thing I want. To be with you and to make you happy. I don't know Priyansha, maybe things would be easier if we were closer. I love you. And I know you love me too. Now before I keep on rambling, I shall sleep

Good morning Priyansha. I miss you. I am sorry for abandoning you , but I want to give you some assurance that I will try my best not to. Because I know its doesnt do our relationship any good and I dont want things to end. You really are the love of my life, and I dont want to lose you. I am sorry, I understand love isnt enough. I will be there for you Priyansha, I am sorry for not keeping my word. I love you

Of course I read your comments Priyansha, it's literally the only way for us to communicate. 

How else are we supposed to talk when my messages don't go through at any given time.

And Priyansha, I have thought of a thousand ways things can go before we meet, but things magically getting fixed isn't one of them. Was listening to some music after office and I really wanted to write for you...but now you probably think it's forced. 

I have loved you, I have cared for you, and if you have ever felt like I don't then mujhme woh kammi hai, it's NOT because I don't love you Priyansha. My silence has never meant that I am unconcerned. Please don't take that as me not being there for you. And you are not 'fill in the blank' for me, you know this Priyansha. I have never, ever thought of us ending, for me we will be together until the end. I know I mess up Priyansha but no matter what, whether I am right or wrong, I will be yours. I told you I will take action. Tum baat toh karo, you will see that it wasn't just words. Ek hafta ho gaya hai since we spoke, I have cried for you like crazy. Like, isn't that love? I miss you terribly, don't you miss me? Kar do maaf, kar lo baat. I love you. Priyansha I love you. Please maaf kar do. I want to say so much to you but my words have no value if you have no feelings for me. I want to pour my heart to you, tell you how much I love you but it's of no use if you refuse to believe me. I love you Priyansha. Main slow hoon but I am persistent. You will turn around. I remember one time you were upset and you called me crying, I want to be that person for you again. I know meri galti hai but give let me try to make things right. 

I wish I was there so I could show you how I feel about you, about us. YOU are the most important woman in my world.  Priyansha you are the best thing that has ever happened to me and I didn't treat you like you were. I understand how you feel when I said let's go local. I made you feel like you're not important. Like you are not valued. Like I am not excited about seeing you. I am very eager to see you monkey. And I really appreciate your honesty about everything. I love you

You are mine. How can you not be? You and I are one. I am yours Priyansha, dont turn your back on me. Everything will be okay I promise. I love you and that word includes everything you can think of. I will make up to you monkey. I love you

 Priyansha you know that I love you. I lack the skills to comfort you but that does not mean that I don't care. Does not mean that I want to be there for just the good times. I want nothing more than to fix things. For things to go back to normal! 

I swear you are my world. I really just want to drop everything and come to you. I just want to be around you even if youre mad at me. 

Before this weekend, you have said a lot of things to me in the past and I choose to believe the former because I know that feeling still exists. Abhi sirf fuse down hai. 

You are my world. You are my everything. I will always be yours. I know I am wrong and I will take responsibility but not like this. I love you a lot and I know you love me too.

I am sorry that I am not able to show you that I care, that I am there for you.

I am sorry to make it about me but main tadap raha hu since Saturday because of how you must be feeling. Because I know you were hurt and it's only gotten worse. Yesterday I met with Arsalan and I realized that I simply don't have the skills to comfort someone. That does not mean that I don't care. Just because I cant comfort you does not mean I am leaving. I do care, I am here for you. 

I cant move past that moment. I have wronged you on many occasions but this is arguably the worst thing I have done. I betrayed you. I treated you like you aren't mine. Like I don't love you. 

I remember telling you that I don't know if I would love you if you stopped loving me. Today I can tell you definitively that yes I will still love you. With a smile. You may forget everything but I will always hold on to you. How can I let go of the most precious person in my life? How can I just walk away. I I just want to give you a hug. Sorry for being selfish but I need it more than ever. I am sorry for letting you down and for leaving you when you needed me. Just because I am not with you does not mean I am not responsible for you. It does not mean I can let up. I am sorry. I love you. I love you with all my heart.