I thought about the whole efforts thing. I have never had to work hard for anything in my life. While you have always got what you wanted, always had people making the most efforts for you, lived life on easy mode. Not a good combination, neither one of us was willing to work on saving this shit. How did we go from one extreme to the other? I feel replaced by whoever your new friend is, you moved on from me to him. Or to one of your other friends...it bothers me so much. I really loved you. I know you loved me too, what happened?? I think about you so much, maybe I should stop.

I want you to long for me like I am oxygen, always be restless if not with me.. I want you to want me, what can I do to make things right? I am thinking of asking my mom to get me married, should I ruin my life out of spite? I need you someone in my life