I feel like I am writing under pressure knowing you will be reading my posts. Makes me anxious.

I love you. 

I used to tell myself I would be happiest if I found the female version of myself. Someone who is just like me. Thats you! Omg why didn't I see it before. It's hard to explain but I know I would be like you if I were a woman. 

^ I wrote this about 3 days ago. Haven't written since. 

9 pm Sunday...Kriti has arrived in India, Im excited for her to meet you. Also, it seems like you are more interested in reading my writing than talking to me these days. Yeh kya chal raha hai?

also it really does not feel like you miss me anymore. I dont expect you to cry for me but it just doesn't sound very convincing when you say it anymore. Cant explain it. It's like the feeling you have, I am not wrong about these things. You are a very smart person. I am a smart person too.